I can’t even muster the will to be angry. I just feel defeated.
i always seem to end up the loser in relationships
Apparently I need to find a significant other with a low sex drive, the ability to break up w/ me in person, and capable of taking some of the blame of “what went wrong” in the relationship instead of blaming everything on me……
..i wish i could just get sick like i want to and fall asleep…
I think I’m going to be sick. I seem to have the absolute worst decisions when it comes to people..
So I’ve decided to see about getting over my general fear of young children…specifically babies…they make me nervous. Like Idk….they seem so fragile…I don’t understand babies. Like no maternal instinct here I’m pretty sure…
maybe this should just be called
the blog where kat whines a lot
ohohoh. to top it all off.
i cant talk to anyone about it like i need to.
i cant vent properly….
the people i trust either live 2+hrs away, dont care, are irritated withe me, or the thing i need to vent is about them.
fun isnt it.
happy thanksgiving break to me.
happy break motherfucker. hope you didnt want to feel good all damn week. oh you also had hoped to be happy upon getting back to school? hahahah fuck no. youre going to sit and be miserable because yet again youre not what they want.
Sorry for making things weird for you and Dustin.
hmm…i want to post things but i cant even be sure they wont be discussed by this point. especially mentioning names of people…which is a tad disappointing but what can i really do about it. i am posting it online for those who have access to read it…so its not really private.
anyway completely off topic.
what does one even do when one has a mutual interest in the person one chooses to classify as their best friend. we already agreed neither of us was going to act upon it for fear of destroying a perfectly good friendship… hm… h m h m